Don't you see it you always be my favorite. Your tweets. Your voice. Your smile. Your looks. Your everything. Forever and always gonna be my favorite.
It's last night. Like usual we had a long night conversation. For about 2 hours and more we had ourself talking to the phone. I just love our late night conversation. As i said, his voice is my favorite sound. We talked about so many things. Laughing and stuffs. He's my friend. He's my love. He's my everything. We talked and talked until something came out. And that thing totally ruined up my mood for the whole night. I mean morning. Yeah it's about 2am when we suddenly get into a fight. No it's not a fight. It just me. I mad at him. Totally mad.
I just don't know what to said after he told me about it. I mean i can't even trust it myself until he said the word 'sumpah' himself. Can you see how much i trust him? I swear i mad at him to the max last night. He's true that i don't want to talk to him anymore but i don't want to make it seems obvious. So i force myself to talk to him until i can't held it anymore. I hung up the phone. He said sorry. Many times. Many many times. I know he did it not on purpose. I mean he must not be thinking what he was doing at that moment. It just that i can't control my anger. I just too angry. All i want to do at that moment is just stop talking to him and get to my bed. But he refused to hang up the phone so fine i did it first. I tweets a bit and straightly went to bed.
And guess what? I can't even sleep once i get into my bed. All i was thinking about is him. And whenever i mad at him and ignore him, i felt like we were far far apart. I just can't stay far away from him. I want us to be as close as we can eventhough in fact we're not. It's only one night and i already felt something bad cause mad at him. I can't mad at him. Not even for a night. I love him too much. Seriously i can't stay mad at him for a long time. He'd said he's not going to do the same mistake again. And yes, i do trust him eventhough he had destroyed my trustworthy towards him. Eventhough i've said i'm not going to trust anyone anymore. It just words that i said when i was out of control. I was upset last night. And still... maybe. I dont know. I just hope yesterday is the last one. I don't want to lost my trustworthy towards him. I know he's not going to do it again. I know him. I know my sayang.
Just don't do this again. I hate tears.